" i can't even tell you i love you
my throat chokes up
i just want you to come back
my heart is ripping apart
i only know just you
can't you come back"
- brave brothers feat jay park- i want to cry
Honestly i have no idea when or how our friendship broke apart.
i just felt the effects of it.
will you ever know how much i love hearing your bubbly voice,
it makes me feel warm inside.
it makes me smile.
when i was pissed at you or just emo-ing that day, your voice made thing better.
it really did.
but look at us now.
we have grown so distance and it seems as though our 5 years of friendship amounted to nothing.
all our lepaking session and midnight talks on the phone.
somehow there was a time where i tot i knew you
but now i realized i don't.
i realized i never knew anything about you.
we made plans, you said you miss me but you didn't bother to do anything.
even when your online on msn, you dont bother to say hi.
yeah your egoistic. i learned that.
if i knew, i shouldnt have hugged you one last time.
i wouldn't have to think about you and the feelings that came with it.
but i did, didn't i?
and i swear at that moment, i just wanted to hold you longer but it was impossible right?
now look, our friendship is bynd repair and i have to be moving on.
i cant wait for you to realize that. life doesn't wait for anyone.
all the talks that we have, all the dreams that we shared.
why are you so cold now?
it hurts alright. it really does!
sometimes, i feel as though i mean nothing to you.and i guess i am a nobody to you.
and for every time i think or miss you, i gotta remind myself you don't care about me.
cause im just someone from your past that never made it to your future.
i hate how easily you make me cry.
and just know that once you really were someone in my life.
and i regret the fact that im losing you all over again.
xoxo,
rai.
