no matter what you do, it will catch up with you.
I've always hoped mine didn't.
but it did anyway.
i'm like everybody else.
i have my lows and highs and my worst.
different people handle different things differently.
sometimes, i wonder if i chose the wrong way but what is done is done
leave it behind and move on.
im always trying my hardest to be strong and not let the tears fall but there were times where i had enough.
whether to feel alive again or to just forget and let go,
i still wonder if i chose the wrong way to display it?
i still remember having 10 in one arm.
for all the 10 reason why i hated my life and why i would rather be dead.
i still remember those pills.
those were scars that never healed.
sometimes, i'm scared to death.
when i think about it.
im scared im addicted to it.
but i doubt it. i still remember the time where my best friend took my___ and threw it away.
that motivated me to quit and handle things differently but I've been turning back.
i'm trying my hardest not too but sometimes, life just knock the hell out of you and you need a little diversion.
honestly, i hated myself for doing it but whats been done is done.
when i lost belief is so many things, god made me believe in him.
there were times where i decided i can't take it anymore and i'll end it soon
HE gives me a friend to pull me through. someone who shows care and concern for me.
someone who helps me up and says " hey! everything is gonna be alright".
For those who did that in my life, i want to THANK you guys.
you guys are the reason why im still here.
THANK YOU!
